I’m still awake and I’ve been doing some thinking..
You can stop liking someone, but that doesn’t mean you’ll stop caring for them. I guess in a way that’s a good thing? It shows that you’re a caring person and that you want to know that he (or she, for others) is doing okay. I know that there will always be a part of me that will care for every guy that I’ve truly liked. That doesn’t mean that I’m going to keep on hoping or not get over them, but I want them to find someone who’s good for them. I could honestly say right now that I want each and every one of them to be happy. I saw pictures of a guy that I used to like from my freshman year in college, and I still want the best for him. I don’t like him anymore or anything, but I think he deserves happiness because he’s a great guy. I think I’ve reached the point of not being angry when I see them with other girls or whatnot. That’s a big step, right? I have crushes and stuff, but I don’t think I genuinely like anyone right now..
it’s annoying when you feel like you have to compete with other people for a friend’s attention. i’m seriously getting tired of this. i don’t feel important to anyone. why is it that whenever i get close to people, i push them away and drift away from them? i’m going to end up alone. no joke.